OK, I couldn’t wait, so I started testing with the OPK last night. I was going to start tonight, but I’m just so anxious to get this show on the road. The test was negative, as I expected, so it doesn’t seem like early ov is taking place. Now I’ll continue to test daily until I get a positive test result, or (gasp) my period.
It’s funny how desperate I am now for a BFP. I went back and forth all summer long. Actually, I started this year out planning on trying to get pregnant in August. August came and went without a BFP. I was trying, but only half-heartedly. As long as we danced the baby-dance in the middle of my cycle, I figured we’d be ok. I wasn’t testing or taking my temp. And I wasn’t tracking anything other than my period. I did the bare minimum, believing that we had done this once before, so this time shouldn’t be a problem.
I should have known better, but it worked out, because I realize now that I just wasn’t ready. Also, I was trying without hubby’s help. I wasn’t including him in the conversations I was having with myself about whether or not to commit to trying. I didn’t want to stress him out, and alter any shot we have at getting pregnant again. But I also didn’t want to hear any arguments against getting pregnant either. So I kept our “trying” to myself.
Now that we’ve had the conversation, and I know he’s on board, I think I’m finally able to embrace the idea of taking this journey again. Ultimately I know that God’s timing is the only timing that matters. If this is meant to be, it will be.
~ L.A. Mommy
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